I don't know how many times I'm going to have to rant about this b**ch but I hate my mother so much. NOTHING I do is good enough. Even if I fricking cave to her garbage and apologize, there's something wrong with my apology. I can't say anything right, I can't do anything right, nothing. This woman is the reason why my heart is filled with pent-up anger and has been for 9 years now. Even if I try to say anything or have a peaceful discussion she gets angry and never listens. And then she denies what she did and/or finds some way to blame me. And just like every single year, she gets even worse starting on the week preceeding my birthday. This woman is just too much. I barely even leave my room anymore because I can't stand to be around her. The only time I get peace is when she leaves the house and that's rare and only for a brief time if it does happen. I tried to get along with her anyway but she's apparently hellbent on making that impossible. I don't care how stressed and underslept the fool is, I'm tired of her taking it out on me. I'm tired of not being able to do anything right and then having her act like the victim.
"I speak for the grass, and I say you're a menace to society."
Okay, first of all.. Whoever decided that some teabags doesn't need those sting thingies, can go jump into an active volcano.. If I have to squeeze another of those hot ass shit bags another time with my fingers, I'll fucking scream..
Also, if you know something is cringe, the stupidest fucking shitting thing to do is literally be the only one to comment with nothing but "cringe", like I'm not already painfully aware of it.. And when your only video on YouTube is a 9 second long clip from something I can only assume is some old, obscure game from nineteen-hundred and bread-shortage, which title is just 'e', not even capitalized.. I don't see how this ass has any RIGHT to call my passion project from SIX YEARS AGO "cringe".. I haven't even LOOKED at it in six years, because I KNOW it's cringe.. But I was like.. 16 and going through some shit, so I made this AMV for a bunch of my favorite sad-anime to a song that was on a tribute-album.. A TRIBUTE TO A FUCKING TERRORIST ATTACK, which I had listening to a lot for a while and even fell asleep to.. So excuse me that you, as a total fucking stranger, randomly found this random AMV from 6 years ago, who's song isn't even in fucking English, by the way.. (The song is basically about how you should tell your close ones what they mean to you, before it's too late, it's sad as shit..) I spent a lotta fucking time on that shit and I knew it was bad, but I still really wanted to make it..
i am so fucking fed up of this shit. every time, i'm foolish enough to believe her when she makes promises. but every time, without fail, she doesn't stick to them. half the time i want to just curl up in a ball and die. she makes comments when i get up late, or don't do school stuff, but that's not laziness, it's depression. and when she'd rather spend money on alcohol and drugs than give me just twenty quid of what she owes me, that i need for mobile data since she couldn't be bothered to pay the broadband bill because she spent the money for that on the aforementioned things, it really shows where her priorities lay. is it really that much of a surprise when i literally can't get out of bed in the morning? the one person who can help me with this, who stops me feeling like a worthless piece of shit, i can't even talk to because discord won't open using the crappy hotspot i'm connected to. my mind goes to some awful places when i don't have the internet, and i hate it. but there's literally nothing i can do about it. i really am gonna just cut off all communication with her once i go off to uni. i don't care if it upsets her, she doesn't deserve me caring about her anymore.
I seriously cannot stand my mother. The idiot fricking rushing me literally 2 damn seconds after she dares to wake me up for reasons unknown to f*cking mankind, pissing me off before the day even starts. Basically the first valentine's day I have to spend as a couple with someone and the piece of garbage isn't even going to let me enjoy it because of her selfish reasons. Everything this woman does now sets me off because she's pushed me to my limit with her bullcrap for the last 3 (really more like 9, but the last 3 especially) years. And she's been getting as bad as she was in 2017 again lately.
I wanted to be in a good fricking mood today but boy how stupid of me to assume this bitch would ever let that happen.
And then she'll whine and act butthurt when I come down and act grumpy after her crap sets me off yet again and act like I'm a horrible beast who behaves irrationally and makes her life miserable.
Still have no idea how the fuck this girl function and it's really starting to get to me.. It doesn't help that I've kinda been stuck with her for days with no breaks..
I get that when watching shit, she doesn't like subtitles and I do.. She finds it distracting.. But I actually need it.. I have problems with my ears and UK accents are sometimes hard for me to understand and it's from the 1700ish, so that certainly doesn't help.. And SHE KNOWS THIS.. I have told her repeatedy.. But we're watching a series SHE HAS SEEN BEFORE.. SO WHY DOES SHE STILL REFUSE TO SET ON FUCKING SUBTITLES..
AND THEN SHE HAS THE BALLS TO FUCKING. KEEP. TALKING. AND SPOILING SHIT. AND SHE SOMETIMES ASK ME WHAT JUST HAPPENED. AND I SAY "I DON'T KNOW, I DIDN'T HEAR CUZ YOU WERE TALKING AND THERE'S NO FUCKING SUBS" AND SHE STILL DIDN'T PUT IT ON.. AND WHEN I ASK HER ABOUT STUFF, CUZ I DIDN'T HEAR, SHE ANSWERED WRONG OR SAYS "I DUNNO"! I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO REWATCH THIS SHIT LATER, CUZ I'M JUST CONSTANTLY CONFUSED.